Beautiful
I recently discovered this song...and it's amazing. So, I thought I'd share the lyrics with anyone out there who may actually read this. The song is called "Beautiful" by Bethany Dillon.
"Beautiful"
I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life
[Chorus]
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory
[Chorus]
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful
Isn't God amazing? I know I struggle with the want to be "beautiful" and everything else this song talks about just as much, if not more, than your average 21 year-old female....but it is Him in me that brings about beauty. He makes me stand in awe, and He loves me and thinks I'm beautiful. What a mighty God we serve indeed.
They made it!
My friends, Ethan, Justin and Eric, made it all the way across America, from California to Maine, yesterday. I am so dang proud. I had a wonderful phone call and conversation with Ethan today, as he was sitting at a baseball game in Portland, Maine, enjoying the fact that today was the first day in 2 months that he didn't have to wake up and put on spandex and get on his bike. I've missed them...but I know that they've been out doing something amazing with their summer.
Go to www.spokebiketrip.com and read about it. Yep, those are my friends. :-)
Ethan said now he can go to his journal where he has his life goals written and cross off "bike across America"...how cool is that?
Tomorrow morning they get on a train and start the 3 1/2 day process of riding home on said train...and then they're back in California! Yay!
On another note...I still don't feel good, but I need to go for a run....hmm...I think the run is gonna win out over the cold. Hope ya'll are doing well...
Mark, Steph and baby Hope...see you three in 10 days... :-D
Home from the lake.
I'm several shades darker than I was 4 days ago. Many fun memories of inner-tubing on big bertha, falling off the sea-doos as Ashley does donuts, and laughing until my sides hurt while Em taught us Indian poker.
I could have a lake house when I'm older I suppose....but I could never live there. Do you know how hot Arizona is?
Longest drive home this morning...took us 6 hours to drive home. I was in the middle of the backseat...not fun.
I'm trying to figure out when Kins gets home from Chile. E-mail saying a broom broke while she was sweeping and it went into her hand. Stiches in another country....she's a brave girl. I miss her and want to give her a hug. She and I will be roommates in our own apartment in less than a month. I'm excited.
I have this thing where I can't keep my toenail polish the same for more than a week. I got out of the shower today and changed it back to a creamish/pink color. Looks nice with newly tanned toes.
On the way home today we stopped at McDonald's for breakfast...we bought the homeless guy on the corner a meal. I appreciated him because his cardboard sign said "hungry, please help". I'm more willing to give food than money that will go to support a habit.
E-mail from a friend that has my mind reeling...don't know what to think.
My niece is to be born in 10 days....prayers would be wonderful. Hope Elizabeth Rogers...I can't wait to meet you. See you in 10 days beautiful.
I don't feel good...what was a sore throat 3 days ago is now a full-blown head cold now. Stupid stuffy nose.
I missed church today...technically that's breaking contract.
Contract...don't get me started on that.
It's freezing in my house right now, and outside it's 100 degrees.
Welcome to Southern California. I love it.
I have to go back to work tomorrow...I sure hope I feel better by then.
God bless to you and yours...
So hot...
So...my room in the house that my parents live in (which is my home when I'm not in school at CalBap) is ridiculously hot in the summer. The vents are broken, so there's no air, it's upstairs in the corner of the house, and it's above the garage, with all that heat rising into my room. It's so hot it's just gross...so, I've started sleeping on the couch downstairs. I really don't mind it actually...it reminds me of this past year when I'd wake up and have to move to the couch to sleep because of a certain roommate snoring like a bear...haha. (None of that this year, right Kins? Yesss...)
So, why am I blogging about this instead of getting much needed sleep for my 8 hr. workday and then a 5 hr. drive to the lake tomorrow? Because I'm letting my ipod battery die, so I can re-charge it and let it come to the lake with me. That's why. And because blogging is cool. :-)
Have a wonderful weekend ya'll...see ya Sunday afternoon-ish.
Turkey and the lake...
Someone left a comment on my last post for me to tell about my trip. I want to, I want to tell this little blogging world all about the amazing things I saw and did and experienced and what God taught me in Turkey, but how? Where do I start? How do I fit 1 1/2 months of eye-opening experiences and life lessons into a single post? I should just hand you my journal I filled up while there...but, that's not possible. So, here's the remedy: I'll tell you about one of the most amazing things I experienced, and the rest, well, you'll just have to find me in person, set up a Starbucks date and I'll tell you more then.
So, about 2 1/2 weeks into the trip I met this beautiful Turkish girl named Ezgi. I adore her. She is a college student who speaks amazing English, and her, shannon and myself quickly became friends. One afternoon, when we were walking down a busy street in Istanbul, Ezgi said that she loved us very much and prays every night that we all end up in the same Heaven together. I saw this as an opportunity from God so I took it. I told her all about how Shannon and I KNOW we'll be in Heaven when we die, and the assurance of Jesus Christ as our Savior. She then asked me about Jesus, and there, on a busy street in Istanbul and then continued to a drinks cafe on a rooftop I proceeded to tell her all about Jesus Christ. His life, death and glorious resurrection. I got to speak the Truth of my Lord to a girl who had never once heard it before. It was amazing. The last 2 1/2 weeks of our time there, she kept asking questions.
The night before we left, Shannon and I wrapped up a Turkish Bible and gave it to her. She didn't open it until she had left, but later that night we recieved a text from her. She told us she was crying from our gift, that we must love her very much to give her something so important to us, and that of course she will begin to read it. Praises were definately prayed to the Father that night.
Now that I'm back in the states, Ezgi and I still e-mail. Pray for her...Turkey is a dark land, and being a Christian means you probably will be disowned, and you will probably be turned down left and right for jobs. Persecution is also rampant there.
So...this is just one of many stories I could share. Call me up...let's have coffee and I'll tell you more. :-)
Tomorrow night, my girls and I leave for Lake Mead. I'm so excited, I need to get away from Riverside for awhile. I need to leave the bookstore, and just have some "fun-in-the-sun" time. I love the girls I'm going with, I love bathing suits/sunscreen/boats/sunshine! It's gonna be wonderful. Yay.
Kins is in Chile right now. My little world-traveler roommate. She is missed quite a bit. No more leaving Kins, aight?
2 weeks from tomorrow I leave for Louisville to be there when my niece is born. Hope Elizabeth Rogers...I'm so excited to meet you.
Okay...I've updated enough for awhile. Maybe now Kimmy will link me. :-)
Don't worry...I'm still alive
So, before I left, I had every good intention of posting my updates from Turkey here in this very blog...however, once there, blogspot did not work. Sorry for everyone for the confusion.
Anyways, I've been home in good 'ole America (California, specifically) now for almost 5 full days. It's a little weird, but mostly I'm just really glad to be home.
The first few days have been spent catching up with many friends who were missed...this takes a lot of time, so I hadn't rested until today.
Happy fourth of July! Last night, Kinsley and I drove down to Huntington to her Dad's house and spent the night. This morning, we woke, had yummy juice drinks and rode the 7 miles on our bikes from her dad's to the southside of the pier. There we slept in the sun, played in the water, and rode the 7 miles back home. Yes, yes, my tushy is VERY sore. haha. And of course, in true Robin tradition, I'm slightly burned. haha. Then it was family bbq, and the freeway drive home with fireworks in every direction.
Now I'm here writing this before showertime and bedtime. I'm exhausted, and I have a long day of work tomorrow. :-)
I love summer...and it's finally here in full swing.
I'll write more later when there's more time and I'm not so tired.
Happy birthday America. :-)
